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The wonderful Jake has resolved the majority of my website issues, and my old TextPattern posts are now all back online. However, the comments are not! They show as being imported but they are not assigned to any posts and I can only see them in the admin panel. Very strange! Google or WordPress.org also do not help me with trying to solve this issue. I also can’t figure out why when you click on a post the sidebar navigation disappears.

I think maybe I am not very good at the internet.

By the end of October my host is closing down after a great 8 year run. So over the next few weeks ANIMOLLER.com will be closing down, and in theory reappearing (in theory being I have already paid for a year of hosting so it better be!). However, seeing how I have only the faintest of ideas on how to move servers, I am probably going to break things and lose data and who knows what else. Oh well, one can only try.

Until then, adios!

P.S. Thanks for everything, Richard!

This is why there is nothing here.

I think it is quite obvious that I have seemingly fallen out of love with the internet, and in particular, this ‘ere website. The very one I have lovingly (and sometimes angrily) crafted from nothing more than words and web software I don’t like very much over the past seven years. I’ve lost a lot of motivation for writing over the past few years, which is probably because I haven’t redesigned my website in years, because everyone knows you will stop doing anything that becomes monotonous and uninteresting. Because I do actually want to keep writing, I have wondrous and grand ideas of pulling everything down to bare bones, installing a new CMS, and completely starting again. I want a photography portfolio, and something pretty and new to present my musings on life in. Instead, I think, “Damn, importing all those entries into the database is going to suck!” and, “I really don’t have time for this!”

What I am really saying is that I am excellent at procrastinating. What I am also saying is that my life has also been extraordinarily busy. Since my last update I have:

• Spent four weekend in Auckland visiting my amazing boyfriend Duncan
• Went to the most amazing drum and bass gig ever: Drumz 2007 with Marcus Intalex and Doc Scott
• Spent eight days in Tonga fighting rabid dogs and falling coconuts
• Started learning to become a super awesome drum and bass DJ
• Become obsessed with the Shortland Street serial killer
• Discovered Facebook

To be honest, I’m not sure what the conclusion of this post is – I’m not going to profess to write more, and I’m not even going to promise to do the things I said I want to do in the first paragraph. But it’d be nice if I did.

I feel like I’ve had a mental blockage for over a year now. I will sometimes sit in front of my computer, looking at the main page of my site and thinking, “What goes here?” I’ll lean back, thumb and forefinger on my chin, look up to the ceiling and ponder, “What could I even write about?” Then oftentimes, I will click through to my old archives, typically during the living-alone-and-slowly-going-mad-in-Houston era where I believe my funny was at its peak, have a wee chuckle over how I used to amuse myself considerably, which inevitably will always lead to the same place – crying into my pillow about losing my textual creativity.

I guess it isn’t altogether a bad thing though. My visual creativity (i.e., my photography) has increased significantly over the past couple of years. I have created a graph to demonstrate this from 2000 to now:

After mapping my interest levels and producing this graph I can see how my interest levels have panned out over time: 2000 – writing motivation levels at their highest due to the Internet Rockstar; 2003 – photography interest growing due to European travels, lots of looking at old things and lack of wireless internet beginning withdrawals from the internet; 2005 – quarter-life crisis hits and proceeds for some many, many, many months, motivation levels for all decline; 2007 – toyboy acquired to offset quarter-life crisis, motivation levels for favourite hobby increase exponentially.

I’m getting a lot more use out of my D70 these days as I have discovered that combining two or three favourite hobbies can create a “Super Hobby”. My Super Hobby is photographer+drum and bass+getting wasted. What could be better, well aside from getting my ass into gear and getting these photos published in music magazines or working on my stupid portfolio which is not really stupid but would be completely awesome but I have no time or motivation to do it myself and instead want my friend Matt to do this for me, not even for free, but he doesn’t have time either.

I also realised I have been writing for the internet for a decade. A DECADE. That is a very long time. After explaining to a friend why I didn’t update my site that much anymore last week, I was asked if I had retired from the internet and I realised I have semi-retired from the land o’ blog. That is, at least until my writer’s block has been cleared, which everyone knows only happens when you become addicted to heroin. I can’t wait!